Saturday, August 11, 2007

Another Update

Johnathan is not doing as well as we hoped. It seems that none of John's numbers are remaining stable. It also seems that we are surrounded by negative people and nobody has a definitive answer to any question asked. There is a lot of speculation on why he is having such troubles but no real answer. No this is what it is, this is how we fix it, and this is how long it takes.
I guess it is a true example of how things are not in our control. It is all left up to our creator.
This is a constant battle for me to know that there really are things I have no control over. You have no idea how badly I want to go in there and "fix" him. But, I can't, to tell you the truth, we can't even hold him, touch him, talk to him or stand closer than three feet from him. It is too much stimulation for him and all the alarms on his monitor begin sounding the minute someone even opens the door to the NI CU. We have to pray that the Lord knows how and when to heal this little angel, that by the grace of God this little fighter we have will be healed and with our Fathers guidance the doctors and staff at the hospital will be able to aid in his healing.
For now, I pray that he is comfortable through the night and there will be better news in the morning.